Today, I ripped you from my mouthCaitlyn Siehl, Left (via alonesomes)
like the bitterest apology I’ve ever given.
I washed you off of my skin, watched the last of you
disappear down the shower drain.
Today, I made a choice
not to set fire to the person I was when you loved me,
not to burn myself to the ground
just to see if you’d come running to the flames.
Today, I stared down the morning until my eyes
burned like suns.
I left the house.
I wore a black dress that hugged my hips
like they would never have to apologize
for their vastness again.
I tore you from my hands, picked the splinters out
with a pair of tweezers, one by one.
I wore red lipstick and stained all my coffee cups with
my own mouth.
I looked in mirrors and smiled.
I walked to the park and
cried watching baby ducklings follow their mother
into the water for the first time.
I got drunk with my friends and didn’t bring
you up once.
I danced under the streetlights and kissed a stranger
who tasted nothing like you.
I went home alone and slept for twelve hours.
I didn’t see you painted on the
inside of my eyelids like the ceiling of
an abandoned cathedral.
I didn’t break a single dish in my house.
I showered until all the hot water was gone
and, my God, I was so brave,
to keep going without you.
To dig through the layers of you
and find myself glowing,
no longer the moth, but the light, itself.
I was so brave to get left by you
and not fall to pieces.
to get left by you and not fall at all.
Dear future girlfriend,L.L. (via girls-and-snapbacks)
I want to be your hero; someone that you can count on even during the most desperate times. Though I don’t have a cape, I won’t hesitate to fly to you. So even if there is a time when the world forces us to part ways, know that I’ll fight for what we have. I want to be your hero. Even though I don’t have the power to read your mind, that doesn’t mean I’ll ever stop trying. I will listen to the words that you speak and attempt to decipher them so that one day I’ll be able to read you like a book. I will learn to hold you close and to kiss your forehead before your tears even have a chance to spill over your beautiful lashes. And though I may not have superhuman strength, I hope that you give me the chance to be strong for you. I want to be the rock that you lean on and the person that you trust. I want to be your hero. And because I do not have the power of immortality, I will never take a day for granted with you. You will be my first thought in the morning and my last at night. You will invade my dreams and I will proudly admit that my mind is completely consumed by the thought of you. Dear future girlfriend, I want to be your hero. And I want your lips to be my kryptonite.
I am nothing special; just a common man with common thoughts, and I've led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten. But in one respect I have succeeded as gloriously as anyone who's ever lived: I've loved another with all my heart and soul; and to me, this has always been enough. Subscribe via RSS.